Actually, since I can't afford therapy, I'm using all of you to get my brain sorted out and to rethink things I have left on the back burner over the years.
I have printed out the questions left in comments and sent to me in e-mails. There are some really good ones. Mrs. G. your question really has me thinking and I will answer it.
The thing is, I don't want to answer with the obvious, text book answer. That's side stepping and holding back ... I already know how to do that. Unfortunately, I do it a lot.
Deb on the Rocks asked: "What would you do if you could get away with it?"
I'd love to pull off a caper. Something like "The Thomas Crown Affair" or "Oceans Eleven" (or 12 or13) .
I'd love to win one of the mega lotto's and share it with my friends and family. Side note: I have a list of people all ready so when I do win, I don't have to think about who I'd share it with. That's the truth ... wishful thinking, eh?
But to keep it personal, and real, and answer as if I was paying some shrink $150.00 an hour to doodle on a pad of paper while I pour my heart out, I think my answer would go something like this.
I would want corrected /set the record straight on two things that have happened in my life. Two things I have kept to myself for a very long time. Two things that I could correct, but I won't, because in doing so, the fallout would be so damaging to other people that it isn't worth it. So I sit between a rock and a hard spot, and will continue to do so until the day I die. I've accepted that it's better I continue to leave it be rather than bring anyone down just to make it right.
Sometimes we just have to suck it up in life and have peace within our own heart and mind and accept it as just that. Sometimes knowledge isn't powerful, sometimes it's destructive.
